Right there with you man, I am 35, gamblined most of my adult life in some form or another. I ran books, gambled myself. In the end, I ended up with about 100k in persona loan debt, credit cards maxed, credit destroyed.
Last year I made the decision to get clean. I realized I was gambling as a means to an end, not for fun. I picked up a 2nd job to pay my bills, and I’ve been clean since July 7th 2019.
My bills are lower, credit is almost back to where I started, and my brain is completely re-wired. I’ve found some hobbies to follow instead of sports and the betting, and life is better.
It will get better. Figure out WHY you gambled. Was it to pay bills? Get another job. Were you missing something in life? Find out what fulfills you Put up barriers and youll get there.
Trust me when I say your life can be turned around, and in 6 months you wont believe how you were living. This doesnt have to be your life.