Don’t be hard on yourself , we all have tried and failed before but the fact you are trying so hard and taking positive steps is great.
You aren’t weak , no one has a clue about my problem , my wife would probably be great but I feel embarrassed by it. You must do what feels necessary , I find after a loss I’m manic and obsessive about stopping , it’s when I’m a week or 2 in I stupidly reward myself and think I can have £20 bet and I’m off again . It’s this I must stop, when the urge comes and I’ve done well I need to stop myself .
Posting on here is a release for me, it’s the only place I can talk about how I feel. I really hope this time it’s the time for you to break this cycle .
