My last post about feeling toxic is true but it’s just a piece of how I feel because I feel empowered with this recovery restart and I’ve taken steps and made some better choices each day. Yes, today is already filled with some pulls from my addicted brain and patterns AND today is another chance to live out the day doing the best I can odaat. I have to focus on choice rather than restraint. Restraint is dangerous for me because it naturaly makes me want to go against it and break through. CHoice is different. May I remember that I choose differently now than when I followed the old addict patterns of thought and action. I choose not to gamble today, it’s the best decision for my well being. Is this easy? I don’t know… it actually takes effort, support and conviction or resolve. Free
