Dear diary,
I relapse on this day dated 9 April 2016. I blew SGD 800 on sports betting and SGD 800 on alcohol. SGD 1600 is a huge sum of money for someone like me who was living on a budget of SGD 10-20 a day, it could have last me 4 months if I use it wisely.
I did not continue gambling but I could not stop drinking, I was an alcoholic, I went on a drinking binge to 4 different drinking place within a night. I self destructed.
It was no excuse – I was sick, instead of sleeping i choose to self medicate with gambling and alcohol.
I could have minimize the damage if I allow myself to go for an expensive massage if I want to self medicate, it will only cost me SGD120 at the most and not blew SGD1,600.
I was not thinking straight, it was a terrible and stupid decision.
It is back to day 1 for me.