I went another whole day without gambling but, again the next day (yesterday) I gambled again. Another $70 wasted. I think about gambling while I sleep and during the day I get that sick feeling in my stomach to gamble. I know it’s all in the mind. I try to focus on the long road and I get frustrated. I have no patience. I want things now and I want to get out of this hole I’m in. I don’t have much money left to do any more gambling this month which is a good thing. I do fear that when I get my annuity on the 1st of May I will be struggling with refraining from gambling. Hopefully I won’t be tempted to throw all my money down the drain again. It’s so hard when you’ve done it for so many years – more like a habit. I’m a grown woman and I do what I want. But this gambling is something I don’t want in my life anymore. Yes, Laura the access to websites to gamble is too easy for me. I don’t have to leave the house to gamble as it’s online 24/7. I’ll be thinking of ways to restrict my access somehow. Glad to hear you are on the right path to stopping gambling Laura. Thanks for your valued thoughts and support.
Gambling is like eating from the forbidden tree in the story of Adam and Eve.
“Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the Lord God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden.
The woman said to the serpent, “We may eat fruit from the trees in the garden, but God did say, ‘You must not eat fruit from the tree that is in the middle of the garden, and you must not touch it, or you will die.
“You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman. For God knows that when you eat from it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”
Then the Lord God said to the woman, “What is this you have done?”
The woman said, “The serpent deceived me, and I ate.”
Lynda