Well, reading what I wrote on Sunday is ironical, since that night I went to the casino with friends and gambled… I won some money and that was the beggining of a tragical week… I set 10€ limit per month in every website where I have an account (probably 10 websites), so it was really easy next day to blow everything I won and more. The worst was that I found a website where I didn’t put a limit so I gambled a lot of money, and the worst is that the money was not mine.
This is exactly what I meant before in this thread. It will never stop, it’s relapses after relapses until suicide, hospital, jail or miserable life.
I’m not giving up though, it’s just two weeks now till the new job, new city, new friends, new life.
For now, what I can say is that today (Saturday) is day 3. I didn’t even want to come here and admit I let this happen, I’m so sad, so disappointed. I guess I’ll have to take what happened as a lesson that one bet is enough to ruin everything. Deep down I knew it, it was just the gambler inside me desperately trying to feed the addiction.
