Ok so after about 24 hrs gamble free,mind battling back and forth,keep checking those odds online,finally i gave in.
Made a $5000 bet and lost. After those hypothetical bets i won and the one that i actually bet on lost.
Felt like i let myself and everyone here down.
I was actually on the brink of making a 20-30k bet on that one game ,luckily i hesitated.
So finaly I think i ‘m going to put the idea of making that one last big bet to get even a rest once and for all.
Going to close online bet accounts and transfer my savings to my wife and kids account.
Also I think I need to find new interests in life, to keep myself busy and not think of gambling
Hard part is my interest has always been in sports.
Come to think about it I think I just realised gambling has negative impact on my love for sports.
Now i’m scared to watch football match, scared that I will be tempted to make a bet.
