[vera]

Thanks Kin, Jen and Monica. Last night I had a mental relapse. I planned the whole gambling trip in my head. Things I planned had gone against me badly so the “what the hell” feeling took hold of my brain. Two things stopped me. I read a post on Lauren’s thread and it snowed heavily so here I am at 4.30 am, checking my bank account online and seeing it is OK. If I had carried out my (evil) plan, I would be arriving home now, shattered. Thank God I didn’t succumb to the temptation. It is so easy to lose focus.