Recovery and relapse:
Many people think that recovery is simply a matter of not gambling, drinking, drugging, overeating, overworking and sex to name a few.
They consider a relapse a sign of complete failure, and long periods of abstinence a sign of complete success.
We in the recovery program have found that this perception is too simplistic.
After a member has had some involvement in our fellowship, a relapse may be the strong and shocking experience that brings about a more rigorous application of the program.
By the same token we have observed some members who remain abstinent for long periods of time whose dishonesty and self-deceit still prevent them from enjoying complete recovery.
Although all addicts are basically the same in kind, we do, as individuals, differ in degree of sickness and rate of recovery.
There may be times when a relapse lays the groundwork for complete freedom.
At other times that freedom can only be achieved by a determine willingness to hang on to abstinence, come hell or high water, until a crisis passes.
An addict who by any means can lose, even for a time, the need or desire to use, and has free choice over impulsive thinking and compulsive action, has reached a turning point that may be the decisive factor in his recovery.
The feeling of true independence and freedom hangs here at times in the balance.
To step out alone and run our own lives again draws us to a Higher Power, we have depended on a Higher Power greater than ourselves to succeed.
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Many times in our recovery, the old bugs will haunt us.
Life may again become meaningless, monotonous, and boring.
We may tire mentally in repeating our new ideas
We may tire physically in our new activities,
Yet we know that if we fail to repeat them we will surely take up our old practices.
We suspect that if we do not use what we have, we will lose what we have.
These times are often the periods of our greatest growth.
Our minds and bodies seem tired of it all, yet the dynamic forces of change or true conversion, deep within, may be working to give us the answers that alter our inner motivations and change our lives.
Recovery as experienced through God or the Twelve Steps is our goal, not mere physical abstinence.
People with closed mind; stubborn ignorant and arrogant :-
To improve ourselves takes effort, since there is no way in the world to make a closed mind do anything, an opening must be made somehow.
Since we can do this only for ourselves, we need to recognize two of our seemingly inherent enemies, apathy and procrastination.
Our resistance to change seems built in, and only a nuclear blast of some kind will bring about any alteration or initiate another course of action. A relapse (if we survive it) may provide the charge for the demolition process.
A relapse and sometimes subsequent death of someone close to us can do the job of awakening us to the necessity for vigorous personal action.