Reading through my initial posts on
The thread was terrifying. As I read onwards my head was pounding in terror at how I was going from bad to worse. Going through thousands and thousands. Out of control. Unpredictable. On a speed train that is gambling and screaming in pain to get off.
(Deep Breath) wow. What a nightmare I lived. What a horror show gambling showed me. It took and it took. It reduced me into an impulsive, uncontrollable gambling zombie. My sane reasonable self trying to make sense of it all the while.
I feel sorry and sad that I Was blinded.
Gambling is toxic, destructive, false.
How something clicked in my head to walk away, I don’t know.
I have walked away and I never ever want to relive that nightmare. I hope everyone on this forum can look back at the nightmares they have lived due to gambling too and walk away from it for good .