Hi Guys,
UG! I went to dinner with my other friend, told him i went to a ga meeting, mistake, mistake, mistake!
He says I won’t say too much but you don’t know how much that p*sses me off. I work so hard for all my life to make money and to just throw it away, just makes me mad. I made a poor attempt to defend myself, that was a mistake too. Any one can make an excuse for anything he says. I told him I went to the meeting so I would have some one to talk to since I have no one who can understand this. He just looked at me.
I am so upset. People make their own happiness, you can chose to be happy if you want to he says.
Did I somehow chose to be CG? Did I chose to be unhappy? I don’t remember making those choices.
I wanted to SCREAM at him, do u know how many times I gambled because U broke a promise to me? Do you know how being involved with you eats at me because I know it’s wrong? Do u know that I hate myself?
I feel so broken
bettie
