Good morning all,
Wow, I sign in and say to myself, OMG they know! As a CG I’ve lied and covered up so much it’s strainge see my friends popping in and advising, not running away and turning their backs, I think thats one of my biggest fears, abandonment. This is not a judgement of you all, it is one of my deep seated problems comming to the surface. I am afraid to be truthful about being a CG, afraid I will loose what little family and friends I have. Face the fear, confront it, move on!
Oh Vera, in another life my company would give me a pass, not any more! Make the goals or find another job. They feel they are on top with so many out of work they can find someone else to take my place. Our teller manager came back from 6 weeks off sick and was written up for not making her goal! ( And they tout that they are the best place in the world to work! I choke whenever I here that!) The fact that everyone else has made it doesn’t help. If I had the credit for the accounts that were "stolen" from me I would be there too. My manager has a chip on his shoulder when it comes to me so there is no recourse that won’t cost me my job. Fair? H*LL no but that is life. I can make myself crazy or I can suck it up and move on. The chance of finding another job is slim as in banking they pull your credit and since I screwed that up I’m stuck. For now.
Larry and Cully make a good point. I was afraid to post my slip because I thought I lost my clean time. That is still mine, just as the $1000-$3000 I DIDN"T loose is still mine. I lost my clean date, and thats bad enough.
Cully, I kept telling myself that the casino was too far away but in truth it’s about 1hour 15 minutes away. It seemed like about a 3 hour drive home! As for the back, I strain it about 2-3 times a year. I bulged a disk about 25 years ago so this happens fairly regularly. I should ring up the ciropractor as I got really good relief the last time I went. Guess what is holding me back? I weigh about 10 lbs more then the last time I saw him and I am embarassed! Is that stupid or what????
Gotta run! Time for work!
thanks again!
bettie
