Oh Bettie! I am so sorry! You have achieved so much! Just blot it all out and move on…Your work stress, your back pain, weight, that dreadful shooting didn’t help…I know we find reasons and excuses to gamble, but recovery is not easy and we are all very vulnerable…Im praying that you’ll reach your work target…I finished my night duty and am off now until June 30th!!!! You wont believe my boss phoned me tonight, calling for overtime tomorrow. I NEED the money, but I refused the work. She thought she had misheard me, but I raised my voice and said NOT AVAILABLE….now I feel I let the hospital down…stinking thinking…AS IF it wouldn’t function without me.I NEED a break even more…I the past, I would have my two weeks off planned to a fine art and a host of lies to cover my tracks. Of course I would be off to the dungeons every day. Not this time! Not tomorrow. And I’ll say the same every day! by the way FWB back on the scene…texting me at the earl hours past few nights…even making plans for my holidays! VERY flattering! one day at a time on that one too……..you’ll be fine Bettie. Could you get a cert from your doc and ask for your deadlines to be deferred?…..you’re in my thoughts n prayers!…
