Bettie, I am just trying to catch up with everyone. I have been feeling a bit down lately – pity party – and wishing I had more friends, I do have a lot of acquaintances, but only a couple of close friends. I have to say that I do notice the change on the site as well as there does not seem to be as much going on. It is what it is though and we just have to deal with things and move on. I was at a work function last night which was held at a hotel joined to a casino. I was really concerned, but I only took $20 with me, however, I did go and look through the casino. I found it interesting to watch people that were gambling. I watched someone playing my favourite machine and it was obvious to me that she was having a problem. She was rubbing the screen, changing all the buttons. It brought back memories to me when I would be playing them and doing all those things and praying that I would get a win as I had lost all my money. I am a compulsive gambler and I can’t put one cent in those machines. It was a day that I was strong enough to go and do that. There are other days that I know I would never do that as I would not have the strength to walk away. It is the first time that I have been in a casino for 7 months – as the last time I gambled is November 1, 2012. It has just dawned on me that I have not played those machines this year… It was done one day at a time though. I don’t think about a week from now, or a month from now, I just focus on today. There are good days, bad days and I never think that I have it beat as I know if I go and play those machines then I am back on a road to self destruction. One day at a time my sweet lord…
