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Re: Woke up wishing I was dead today

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bettie
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hi guys,
i am so tired. i can’t wait until tomorrow-i can shower then. i have to call my gf today and see if she will be staying tonight. my sister is in my guest room sound asleep. nice to have her here. i rarely see her these days. funny to think about it because we shared a bed for 10 years. when i was a baby she would steal me from my crib, she was 5, and stick me in her baby buggy and push me down the street. the poor buggy, meant for a doll, would drag the ground and the neighbors would call my mom and tell her "she’s got that baby again!" 
pt went well yesterday. it hurt but was nice to get out of the sling.
i told my gf that took me to surgery about my cg. it must have been the drugs. she is the one who’s niece commited sucide. she said something about going to grief consueling. i told her i would love to go with her. she was glad that i told her that, as i believe she is having trouble walking through the door-much like goimg to your first ga meeting.
bettie