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Re: Woke up wishing I was dead today

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bettie
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Hi Guys,
Very valid point Larry-I remember needing surgery in the throws of my addiction. Sitting down was nearly impossible but it certaintly didn’t stop me from sitting one cheeked on the seat in front slot machine!
Urges in themselves are truely harmless-it’s when we act on them they become a disaster!
I managed to work out both yesterday and today. One problem though, even with a snack before I worked out tonight I threw myself into insulin reaction then ate 2x what I had planned to eat! Oh well, I will gain control and manage this medical cr*p. just like recovery, baby steps, odaat. I am not helpless or hopeless!
Getting back to basics.
bettie