Hi All,
You guys really are thoughtful, compassionate and kind, some of the highest qualities of mankind.
I did have a nice day today. The church service had it’s moment. I didn’t care too much for the preacher condeming the Jewish faith. I was raised to believe that part of being a Christian was not condemming other faiths. Just my thoughts. The people were all very nice and I was told by one of the co-preachers that he was praying for me. I like that, and I thanked him for it. I was a bit suprised that the lady who invited me also invited someone else to lunch with us at the last minute. I had planned to open up to her about what has been going on but I didn’t want the other person there so that took care of that. We had a nice lunch and spent a couple hours in her hot tub and sitting talking in the yard. Odd to be in swim suits in Chicago in March, but that was nice too.
I am trying to figure what to do and where to start my recovery journey again. I guess I never really stopped my recovery, I just stopped working at it. After the Jan 1st slip I didn’t think I needed to go back to step one but I guess I do. I can’t believe the thoughts the addictive voice in my head tells me. I’m at that " just one last gamble" faze. How stupid is that? I choose to ignore that thought. There will never be a time that I can safely gamble.
Some truths have stuck in my mind. I am grateful for that.
bettie– 3/26/2012 3:12:55 AM: post edited by bettie.
