My Dear Bettie! I’m soooo sorry that you choose to gamble. I’m reading between the lines and wondering if the FWB situation had anything to do with making you feel so bad. The not caring about whether we die or not is something I experienced a lot when I was actively gambling. Dying didn’t seem so bad compared to the emotional hell I was in while being an active gambler. Things started to turn around for me when I realized I was the problem, but that I was also the solution. You do have a vast array of health problems Bettie. Nobody can deny that. But gambling isn’t going to solve a single one of them. You deserve recovery Bettie! Carole
