[bettie]

I’m home, got the mail, 5 ad’s for next months promos. Tore some up, need to do the rest. I keep thinking in a few weeks I’ll have money, just $100, was supost to get a room for my birthday and stay over with my daughter. I know she is dissapointed we can’t do that now. I still want to. WHY???!!!! I can’t believe how much I want to float a check or call my gambling buddy to go. It’s only been 3 days since I wasted my check I didn’t even have yet. Need to call someone who doesn’t gamble. Need to go to the GA meeting I found. Afraid to get in the car. If I stay home I’m safe. Need to call someone now!