My dear friend! Under the right circumstances, there is not a rcg who wouldn’t be susceptible to a slip. I can well imagine how awful you have been feeling, since January 1st. Been there, done that, but with not over a year of clean time, like you, and it felt oppressive. Larry says it eloquently when he says that your FWB "relationship" is not worth nourishing. We all know that, including you, but it sometimes takes time to be able to see it for exactly what it is, and to be able to make that final break. In the past, I’ve asked myself when I was in an unhealthy relationship, how many times did that person have to hurt me before I could let that person go. He is neither your friend nor does he benefit you in any way in your life. A slip is just that, a blip on the radar screen of recovery. And it can be a valuable learning experience. Try not to be hard on yourself about that momentary lapse in judgement. But don’t risk your recovery for a jerk that can’t appreciate what a warm, caring, loving person you are. I care about you. Carole
