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Re: Woke up wishing I was dead today

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bettie
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Well day 2!
Stayed busy busy busy yesterday-out of the condo and with friends who don’t smoke. Got my nails and feet done too-spent my cigrette money on it. I valued my "cigrette money" even more than "my gambling money", my home may have went into forclosure but i had at least 1-2 packs of cigrettes. Talk about screwed up priorties!
The funny part is I keep looking for my smokes. Dringing coffee, going on the PC, driving my car, getting out of bed, all triggers. It will be odd at work today for sure. The one thing though is I have survived gambling urges-and so far nothing conpares to that!
peace
bettie