Well my friends funeral was today but I decided not to go. Jennie doesn’t understand why I would not go and in some ways I didn’t understand it myself. I feel like our relationship ended a long time ago and we really already said our goodbyes. He told me the last time I saw him that the next time I saw him would be at his funeral. Well I guess he was wrong-not that I feel like I won in any way shape or form. I never posted about him here on my thread because I had become involved with the FWB’s and had stopped seeing him-and in all honesty I was afraid my stupid and impulsive and frankly unsafe behavior could affect his health. It’s one thing to put your own health on the line and quite another thing to put someone else in harms way.
The service for my neighbor is next month and I will have to arrange for time off.
Carole you did what was best for you and I believe I did the same. I have heard many times that recovery is a selfish process and I am starting to get that. I did talk to his daughter yesterday and gave my condolences. Thats all I would have done if I had gone anyways.
peace
bettie
