Hi Guys!
Thanks for all the posts! Nancy, I do have a friend I can talk to but somehow I don’t want to tell her everything because I feel judged by her ( like when she drilled me about how much i really have lost ). No words but I got the feeling, you know?
Vera, I would say the latter part is the truth about your FWB, Mine is worth about one million dollars, (I’m not kidding) and he has never given me more than a bottle of wine for my birthday, cheap b*stard!
I’m sure now he has backed off because he thought I would ask him for money, I had not though of that. I hate to admit it but he is the one who bailed me out with my daughter. I just want to be honnest here. He offered, I accepted. Trust me, I was in tears when I took it but I just wanted to get my daughter off my back and he offered me an out. He reminded me not to take it to the casino, even though I told him I was excluded, and reminded me This is just a loan, you know my situtation! ( he just bought a 650,000.00 house) I have no pride or shame left! He is just an *ss! My self esteem is non-existent! Thats ok, when I pull my butt out of this mess I will not repeat this borrowing money thing. I have been independent and pretty much on my own since I was 18 years old and the CG caused this, not the real me!
Where the heck did I go? when did I loose me? I used to be fun and had a few friends to run with. Will the "real" bettie please stand up?!
I had a CG customer today with an overdrawn account. She went to "my" casinos. Can you believe that gave me an urge?? Sick puppy that I am, just seeing the withdraws from her account made me want to go! (and she owes the bank 800.00!) But, it’s wednesday and Here I am. blogging away!
Does anyone have casino dreams? This is like going on a big diet and you dream about dessert! In my dream I was trying to cash out tickets at the cash despencer without getting caught there! How silly! At least I wasn’t playing or spending money!
I know i’m missing some of you but G, and everyone thanks for the great chats and posts. Gonna go read. have a wonderful day!!
Day 9 feels good!
bettieIt’s one thing to know where you want to go-it’s another thing entirely to have the Wisdom to get there….Looking for the Wisdom
