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Re: Woke up wishing I was dead today

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bettie
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Hi Everyone!
Thank-you, thank-you, thank-you for the posts!
I said I would give u the details.
My friend cut short a date to go with me. I assumed she had nothing to do but when I talked to her yesterday she said"I have this date but don’t worry, meet me there and we then we are going to the  boat." Period, no if’s and’s or butt’s.
She would not give me an out and knew it was serious by the message left the night before.
When we got there I went to look for the guard and told him what i was there to do. I had to tell him 3 times. He acted like he had never heard a person say I want to be excluded, who do I need to see.
He called his boss, who asked me the same D*m question, like, are u sure. I guess they didn’t want to loose someone from their "Biggest Looser Club!"
He had me follow him down stairs, my friend said thay only do this in Vegas when their going to break your knee caps!
( I told you, she made me laugh!)
They have a person from the gaiming commission there to do the paper work. The "boss" changed his tune once we were off the floor. He was very compassionate and said this was a smart move and I was doing the right thing.
We filled out the paper work and the commission person had the nerve to ask why I was doing this. I gave her "THE LOOK". ( My friend says this LOOK makes me look like i’m going to punch you in the head!) Needless to say she asked no more silly questions and goy down to business. Funny, when I won 10,000.00 I wouldn’t let them take my picture, now I had no choice. Also, the girl doing the paper work said now you can keep your paycheck, and thats a good thing.
On the ride back my friend asked me some questions, she didn’t even know about the bankrupcy. She was shocked about the wishing I was dead part, and hurt that I didn’t call her. I told her I was too ashamed to tell her but no more, now she knows. And I would not hessatate to call her in a crisis now.
So yes, not as bad as I thought. Lots of back doors here that need closing but one at a time. I hate gambling in Illinois because the boats are smoke free and i HAVE to smoke when I drink and gamble so thats a good thing.
I told her when the weather got better we would drive to michigan ( 1 hour away) and ban there too. Then to Joliet, and that will take care of the tri-state area!
Got to get to my brothers for supper, he made a stew. Great on a cold day. Any other time I would have declined and headed to the boat but not today, I heard they are all closed!!!!!
bettieIt’s one thing to know where you want to go-it’s another thing entirely to have the Wisdom to get there….Looking for the Wisdom