Hi everybody, and thank you so much!! I did NOT gamble yesterday, and it feels like such a relief! I also feel that I moved one step further in my process since I managed to ride of that tough wave I was on yesterday. It must mean I´m stronger now. I agree with you “AlwaysTheFish”, It doesen´t help me either to focus on one day at the time. I have to keep a bigger perspective all the time to be able to stay focused. That said I do understand the principle of staying away from gambling RIGHT HERE AND NOW. It is today you have to choose not to do it. Not any other day. Not someday in the future. I guess that´s classic, fooling yourself into believing you will quit “tomorrow”. I also agree with you and Vera that a complete recovery is a lot more than just not gambling. I use a metaphor for myself: Trying to stop gambling without working on your internal processes is like trying to hold back a forceful river that will eventually brake the hinders you have put up. Really working with yourself involves changing the direction of the river so that the impulse is channelized into something constructive in your life, and no longer ***** holdning back. And Velvet: Yes, life will improve, and I feel it´s improving all ready. Actually I´m starting to understand that my gambling has functioned as a hiding place for me, protecting me from my anxiety for failure. In that way it has held back my chance to unfold and grow as a person, but now that I have stopped gambling I am more anxious but also blooming more than ever. Thank you all a million ***** for your support.
