Congratulations on 5 G -free months William!
Nothing will change the past. That is a common cliche, I know but I really question the value of dwelling on ***** that caused us hurt and pain. Some people become very fixated in past issues. This gives the past power over us. Another cliche, I know, but I have learned that the more I delved into the past, the more morbid my life seemed. Morbidity definitely drove me to gambling and as Neva rightly said, the side effects of the "cure" (gambling) were worse than the depression!
I think it is good to revisit the past William. Look at it as if you are looking at pictures in a book,and when you have observed what you need to see, then turn the page and move on. Each chapter in our lives brings a new experience. Some good . Some bad. Some mediocre. Personally, I used gambling to blur out the pages I could not bear to look at, until the only page left was an empty blank.
I have no words or no picture to describe that page!
From here on we can write the next chapter William, beginning with…
"Today, I did not gamble!"
I hope you regain your life as you enter the threshold of hope!
