[hetty]

Thank you sosad and P, it will be hard but sometimes we must do the hard things to be kind.
Today I’m fighting to stay in recovery, my whole body is one big..let’s go gambling ball, my mind is..agreeing before I realise that NO I can never gamble again.
The urges are so bad, the need is shaking me, unable to think about much other things. I’m ****** low though..waiting, I’m not doing 1 day at the time today, I’m doing 10 min at the time, sometimes just 5 min at the time.
The urges will pass I will stay in recovery, gambling is not an option. Not now not in 5 min time!
You can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.