Just trying my best ODAAT. Still never easy and think of gambling often at the moment. When I analyse this I think its because I’ve done so long now without a bet that my brain thinks I deserve a bet as some sort of reward. I realise that this is absolutely crazy and i need to focus hard on whats really important. I think complacency sets in a little and is really dangerous. I write this but am not asking for advice. I know what I must do to keep clean, just wanted to write it down here, how tough it is at the moment.
