Hi Ed
Just dropped in too see how you are doing.
My CG said to me some time ago that to test your addiction is not to accept it – so this is my message to you. Supposing, just supposing all the noise and clamour in the bookies had triggered a response in your mind and distortion had kicked in – your wife would not have had that relieved smile and you would be feeling lower than a rattle-snakes belly.
You are still in an early recovery and you are doing well – don’t push it. I believe the friends you have known for ever would have had the greatest respect for you if you said ‘I am a CG and cannot go to the bookies with you’. There is nothing to be ashamed about – you didn’t ask for, or want your addiction – maybe one of your friends also struggles as you did and ***** support. We cannot know who is and who is not a CG.
I am not a CG but I will not be watching the Grand National tomorrow, nor will I play cards – even for ******* because it is fun. I don’t do the lottery, I don’t gamble. I will be looking for your post after tomorrow and hoping that all is well.
To keep your simple life it is important to know that complacency is always waiting for the CG who goes with his mates because it would have been awkward if he had not.
I am not judging – I wouldn’t and I can’t – I just know I care
V
