"Then when I get frustrated and shout im had a go at for shouting/not having respect".
I can appreciate it is very stressful for you, however to get fustrated and shout at your Mum and Nan, maybe isn’t the correct way to proceed. Thats why having someone that you can confide in away from your home might be beneficial.
On the surface shouting at someone with Parkinsons, let alone your own mother, and a sick elderly lady who is probably worried sick about the fact she might have cancer, does show a complete lack of respect.
"It was even that bad earlier that my mum was saying shes already cut me out of her will, and after a bit more shouting I must of said a few horrid things to her. Its like they are the only people I can talk to… but because they dont/wont understand I get frustrated trying to explain things".
Six months ago you ***** your mums card and gambled away her money. Since then you have taken out several loans and gambled them, you moan about having to buy a bit of shopping. Is it any wonder your Mum dosn’t understand. We understand to a certain extent, your poor Mum will be struggling to make any sense of it. If your Mum hadn’t of shown such compassion and kindness concerning the money that you ***** from her and you went to court the chances are you would have been viewed as callous, for ******** and deceiving from such a sick lady and now be in jail. Please try and remember that when feeling fustrated with her. Your Mums will is her business, and do you think after what you’ve done you deserve to be in it? I was written out of my parents will when I was in my twenties, I know this for a fact because I seen the will when my Dad **** last year. For things I done to them I deserved to rot in **** and I understand 100% they wouldn’t want to leave me anything. It wasn’t the fact that I had done these rotten things to them that prompted them to write me out the will, but the fact that this behaviour just continued and got worse and worse and I done nothing about it. I didn’t do anything about it till I was 42, three years ago. I was included back into the will since my parents noticed a big change in me and seen that I was actively taking steps to sort my gambling out. Mind you I’d rather have my Dad here then any inheritance.
I don’t think you’re callous; I think you have a serious problem which can be sorted. Are you taking any new measures to help with your gambling, you’re Mum and Nan are not the only people you can talk too. Getting fustrated and shouting, is as constructive as gambling. Staying calm and talking can help a great deal.
I do get angry when reading your posts of late. (This is my equivalent of you shouting at your Mum). I get angry because the way you’re behaving is so similar to the way I behaved at you’re age and I am seeing you making the mistakes I made, but you cant see it.
"I know people have had a go at me before for blaming them for my gambling but that was always a trigger"… If you believe that this is a trigger for you then you must take steps to resolve the issue. Having the awareness that it used to be a trigger now means it can no longer be used as an excuse so thats a good thing.
I know how hard it is to quit, I feel as if I am trying to force recovery on to you which I know dosn’t work. So I’m just going to sit back now and leave you to it. I will be reading your progress and I hope you manage to get everything turned around.
All the best.
Geordie.
Recovery is priceless.– 05/04/2012 04:10:57: post edited by geordie18.
