My head is so dizzy. I cant seem to shake it. I cant think clearly. I dont want to feel this way anymore. My head is such a mess and I am wondering how i can keep functioning. How have i managed to function over the last ten years of gambling? I really am totally exhausted. I just feel like my tank is just running out of steam. Im disappointed in myself for the waste. It makes me feel sick. It is out of control impulsive compulsive behaviour when I gamble. I cant bet higher, I cant get the same rush. I just go completely crazy and I cant stop. I lose a lot very quickly. I win a lot but the wins never last more than a day. What is the point of all this? I find it totally amazing and befuddling that I cant stop. I am trying to. I will continue to do so. I didnt gamble yesterday that has got to be a miracle.
Luna girl
