[icandothis]

Hi everyone, Having a hard time shaking this feeling of doom and gloom.   All that philosophizing yesterday.  Thinking it’s a bunch of cr##.  Bottom line, and I have always been this way.  Tell me I can’t do something or I tell myself I can’t do something makes me want to do it all the more.    I think that is why in the beginning I focused on recovery more than not gambling.  I am done trying to figure it out.  It doesn’t matter, all I have been thinking about is gambling, and some how I need to find a way to stop.