Hi Luv2, You have definitely been pushing yourself working so many hours and I can see why you would want to treat yourself or escape. I know that feeling well… just wanting to escape and then I am not satisfied with just going once… I want more and more… and end up having such a hard time staying away. The after effects of having gambled are so tough to deal with and you want to go back for more… I find it is easier for me if I can just beat that one visit… when I say I might be okay… I might win some money… I feel lucky… I am due to win… It is so easy to find lots of reasons to gamble and when we feel like that… we don’t want to think of the reasons we should not gamble. I always call it the not gambling fairy on one should and the devil gambler on the other shoulder arguing. Sounds kind of crazy but I will continue to fight the devil on my should one day at a time. As I am typing this and thinking about it… I can feel thoughts of gambling coming into my head and I have to continue to fight them. Sorry for rambling on your thread. Wishing you a day free of gambling and a wonderful recovery day. It sounds like you are focusing on that weekend break with your husband… sounds like fun.One day at a time my sweet lord…
