Hi Luv2
Another way to look at the posts on the forum is to see that there are also many who are succeeding in staying GF.
With your urges feeling strong you will be more drawn towards feeling the struggles of others but you can give yourself a reason for your increased struggle. Exhaustion can bring out irrational thought in all of us.
I also appreciate that when you have worked so hard, a reward for yourself is a nice thing to give but your choice of reward is one that gives you pain. Perhaps you could reward yourself with a new plant – one that will flourish and look beautiful and be a constant and happy reminder for you, knowing that you had earned it.
I hope you have a lovely mini-break and come back refreshed.
Velvet
