Well its very late here and I can’t sleep. Some things bothering me, I am easily sensitive but I got the weirdest feeling something was up today from someone. I hate what my mind does, I start worrying and worrying and can’t sleep. I try to let it go, I know in the morning I will most likely feel better but at the moment things seem magnified.
I got through my urges.. they come regularly and I feel i won’t make it but then I fight like mad. I get in touch with people before I go rather than after. I never want to go back and I get so scared that I will. I sometimes start to feel it wasn’t so bad and that is dangerous thinking for me. I am aware of it at least and trying really really hard to stay on track. Im not interested in the time up. I want a gamble free life so for me ******** days doesn’t matter. Gambling is in the past. I don’t gamble anymore.
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