Discovered another trigger today one that I never knew existed, problem is this one I don’t have any control off. People who are two faced…….I am so annoyed right now, all I can think about is placing a wager just to take my mind of this person. Nice to my face, stabbing me behind my back. If I confront this person it will open a can of worms, that will make me more irritated and more likely to gamble. So, I will smile back and nod my head when I talk to this person, knowing what they have done and wonder in an amazement how they continue to *** right to my face.
This situation has brought to my attention how nonchalant I have become about my gambling addiction. It had become quite easy to avoid gambling the past week or so. I was doing very well, under control, not being tempted. But, like most of us cg, there is always something that will provoke us, particularly when we least expect it. I let down my guard, clearly I need to be more vigilant.
Still, and this is the truth, just writing this note in my journal has helped me get things off my chest and calm me down. I will not gamble, I have come along way since March 23rd and I won’t let one person spoil my good work.
odaat…………..stay strong, best to all.
