Took a couple of days away from writing this journal, just needed to get my head straight and be there for my family. Starting to come to terms about the death of my dog, so is my 6 year old. Still very strange not having him around, the little things are noticeable i.e. opening the door and not being greeted by unconditional love.
On the gambling front, it’s been 3 weeks since I lasted wagered. I have been here before, but usually it’s this timeframe that I succumb to temptation, after all I have proved to myself that I can quit, so a wager won’t hurt……..yeah right! A week from today, it will be a month, only once in the past 29 years have I got that far…….almost there.
Good news, today I managed to pay 15% of my debt. Still along way to go and several thousands to pay back, but a good start. The target is to pay off another 10-20% in the next couple of weeks.
Weekend ahead, not good, but I know I can get through it without wagering…………..staying positive.
Thanks for reading and your support. Best to you all, stay strong…………odaat.
