Aww thanks RG sometimes i am just gobsmacked at the support i receive its just so nice. The urges are with me a lot, i am sick of them but i am still moving forward and just doing what i have to do. I dont knwo the desire is ever going to not be there to tell you the truth. I loved gambling but its something i know i cant do. I know it in my heart this time that if i go back i am gone.. I will not be able to go once. If the urge are bad for me now after some time up and i am having trouble fighting them i know only too well that if i go back once, if i put one dollar in a machine there will be no one day of gambling for me, there will be an all out frenzy and i do not know if i would find my way back here, in my heart i just know it.. it is all or nothing for me and with gambling it has to be nothing. I want to go so badly some days that it makes me cry.. its something i cant do, i have to let it go. Goodbye gambling.
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