I feel your Mums pain Blue. But you can change. Your future is not written yet. You have a golden opportunity to write a different ending to this sorry path both you and I have followed. I’m ashamed of my past. Yes, I have terrible debts, these will take time to sort out. Lets both forget the past and focus on the present. That’s what the present is ; a gift !
I have gambled on many days where I was up in the thousands……..sometimes stayed up for weeks, others blown in minutes. The reason ; we can’t walk away. Period. It’s been programmed over years. Forget the money my friend. Let Corals/Ladbrokes Tec have it. If we did not gamble for the next 3 years, we would be in an amazing place. Read other diaries. There are no other endings. We can do it. No, it will not be a walk in the park, nothing worth fighting for is easy.
I’m walking with you.