I wonder why I can be busy, buzzing along, minding my own business and for no reason at all a gambling thought arises. I mean it’s like BAM!!! right in my face. I don’t know if I can even call it a thought. Maybe a memory. A flash. I’ll be working on the computer, walking down a hallway, getting lunch ready, or some other mondaine routine and it happens. It’s like I’ve been struck with a dart. I usually quickly pull the dart out and carry on with what I am doing, not really thinking about it. Some darts are left in a few seconds longer, and that bothers me. It’s like a poisonous dart. It must be pulled out quickly and thrown away. I feel that when I read others posts, those darts hit more often and I leave them in a little longer than I really wish. I know reading and posting is important, but is it good to expose myself to more of these "darts?" Can anyone relate to how I’m feeling? Any advice?
