Hi Flyorra
Why do you feel so lonely and unloved?
In this community you are cared for – you are cared for by so many who are walking the same path as you and also by so many of us who are cheering you on from the side-lines and wanting you to find your inner peace.
I don’t think that life is fair and I feel it is something we have to accept and then do something about – because we can. If I didn’t ‘know’ that you could control your addiction I would not be writing to you. I know you own it – and the courage to control it can only come from you – but the ability to do so, with support, is inside you.
Tell us about the person that is ‘you’. Not the person you feel is controlled but the person inside who wants to be free.
I think that many CGs find that ******** the days doesn’t help. How about taking a leap of faith and say ‘today I will not gamble’ and start a life-time of being gamble-free? Not day one, day two, day three, day four but one day at a time. It isn’t a competition. Only deal with ‘today’. Nobody wants you to lose. I have known and heard of many CGs that given time (not days counted off) who one day find they are living wonderful, fulfilled lives and have learned to love themselves as well as be loved. The individual days had evolved into a lifetime commitment.
Do you go into Kathryn’s group? She is a beacon shining forth with inspiration. She is living each day as it comes and as well as all that – she is a fellow ******.
10 dollars, 10000 dollars – it makes no difference. It is what the gamble does to your head that makes you feel so bad. A gamble-free life is within your power, take all the support you can. You ‘can’ do it.
Velvet
