Hi Cat, My heart goes out to you missing your grandson and also your recent loss as well. I think people talk about empty nest syndrome as if it isn’t really much at all. But I think it can be devastating and something that is very hard to adjust to. I also think it is more than just missing our kids and grandkids, although that is painful. More me, I think there is an identity crises as well. Who am I, not in relation to my kids? Who am I if I am not taking care of my kids, and in my case, also my parents? I think it would help if I had not given up my career to be a stay-at-home mom, although that decision is not one I regret. I wish I had planned ahead for this time when my kids would be gone. I am trying to look at this as an opportunity for me. New career? Hobbies? New business venture?..taking things one day at a time. Right now, I have no answers, except I know that gambling cannot fill the void.
I think I need to pray for another miracle, as right now I can’t see having the money to go to London. We are trying to save so that we can help out with the wedding expenses. Each month, more money goes out than comes in, which is a bit of a problem. lol Speaking of prayers..I am thrilled for my daughter. Although, I have to admit, my prayers might have had more to do with me than with my daughter, as I would have had to live with the fact that it was all my fault that she was an hour late for the interview, and that is why she didn’t get the job and why I completely ruined her life! lol
take care, Cat. We are meant to enjoy all the passages of our life. Moving forward through them instead of choosing to gamble and stay stuck.
