Dear Vicky
I am in a similar position as yourself. I am just so addicted to the machines and I have trouble staying away.
I want to do the same for myself I know it will be the best thing i can do for myself.
Sadly Vicki, I know I am not ready to give it up although there is nothing to gain in me continuing this habit. I cant help it. It’s a terrible disease.
I genuinely hope that you be strong because continuing gambling has brought me nothing but misery. I don’t even know why I am doing this to myself. It’s irrational.
What I want to say is I admire your determination and encourage you to be strong. Don’t be like me. Everyday I feel so down and depressed, and angry that I have so little control over this.
Even if I do win the euphoria is short lived and after the high comes the low. Every time. The script is the same. I am sick of it and I would never wish for anyone to go through and put up with my agony.
All the best Vicki. I know you can do it. One day at a time. And hopefully I will follow in your steps xx
Chloe