Hi (((ican))) just catching up on your thread and I am so sorry that you have been through so much. So happy that your brother is through his surgery. You really have had a rough time of it and have pushed yourself to do things when you were probably emotionally distraught and not allowing yourself to feel the pain. I deal with sick children not on a daily basis, but I remember one of the children passing away, and I said to the doctor I don’t know how you deal with it. What she said always struck with me "if you don’t feel the pain then you don’t feel the joy". We have to allow ourselves to feel the pain of grieving for a loved one and not try and bury it. I will remember you in my prayers.One day at a time my sweet lord…
