Today I am 8 months free of playing those machines!!!! It is only with the support of the counselors and my friends at GT that I have got here, so thank you for your support for being there for me and helping me up many many *****. I was so stressed for a while as I was thinking that I would blow it once I got to 8 months as this is the longest I have gone since starting GT. I now know it is just another day and I will continue working recovery towards a gamble free life. I know that I have to be on guard at all ***** though, as just like that I could be back playing those machines. I don’t want that life again. I know I need to work on myself still and it will be a continual work in progress with ups and downs. I can only do what I can do and that is why I have to remember it is one day at a time!!!! I know that I can’t go and play those machines again as I am powerless once I start with them. I also know that just going once is not enough for me, and I go back again and again and it takes so long to find the strength to stay away!!! I think that is part of the reason that keeps me away as I know I dread the strong urges, the arguing in my head, the self loathing, the feeling of being a failure. I know that I can say this when my addiction brain is at bay, but I would not think about all this when I was in a gambling spree!!! I will continue on my journey one day at a time!!! Wishing everyone a wonderful gamble free day!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
