Hi Crushedsoul, I am sorry you are in so much pain. We all have been there. We have all, like you, wanted the pain of gambling to go away, but not the gambling. You continue this parade of destruction, but in the meantime, the parade of life is passing you by. You say that these last 2 years have been the worst of your life, but during that time you had your best friend with you. Gambling is the problem. it is what is standing between you and a healthy relationship. Please, for your sake, reach somewhere deep within yourself and find the desire to quit this terrible disease. First find the desire to help yourself. then you will do what it takes to find a doctor. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, but you have to want to see it. I am saying this to you because I posted for a long time before I had any desire to change. I only wanted the pain to stop from the poor decisions I was making, instead of trying to stop making the poor decisions that were causing me pain. Please give recovery a try.
