Good morning Crushedsoul. I think we’ve all been at that point where dying seemed like the only way we could stop the gambling destruction…I know I have. If you are still gambling doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be posting. As Paul wrote about this site "supportive and non-judgemental environment" Nobody will judge whether you are still gambling or not. All you’ll find here is support and encouragement. In the beginning of my recovery, I had to block all access to cash. That meant giving up my debit card, stopping check cashing privelages at the casinos making sure I didn’t have cash on me during the weekends. The first few weekends I took a sleep aid and slept through most of the weekends so I didn’t have to face the urges. I’ve had a few binges along the way but my recovery progressed because I kept posting, reading and wanting to do whatever it took to break the gambling cycle. Your life is important, the need to gamble is overwhelming, do whatever you can to block your gambling (throw your computer, cell phone out the window on the freeway) so you can enjoy the life you’re meant to have. I think the hardest part, in the beginning, is we want to stop the pain and loss so desperately but we don’t want to give up our ****** because we’re so addicted. William, Paul and BlueElvis are very smart men so listen to their words. You’re in my prayers…not sure if you believe in a Higher Power but I know I wouldn’t be where I am now but for the Grace of God so hope you don’t mind. Sherry/Neva
