WEEK 3
It is Week 3 and I am feeling better by the day. The first week was absolute misery for me and Week 2 wasn’t much better. But slowly the fact that I am working on my recovery and getting to meetings makes me very proud of myself and my family is proud of me as well. I am happy that so many of you have reached out to write to me and I read every single reply. Please know that your thoughts, words, and support give me the courage to keep going regardless of the financial circumstances I find myself.
For those reading my post for the first time, maybe you are in a place of hurt as well. I know that feeling very well. It is true that meetings make it and I am happy after every single meeting that I make myself attend. I find something interesting coming out of each and every meeting and the people I am meeting. I am also learning that not everyone is there for the same reason and I am becoming more protective of those that I let into my life right now. I do not want anything to come between me and my recovery and I am enjoying for the first time in a long time not ***** about where I am going at 7:00 PM on a Sunday night.
I am also realizing that life is not a walk in the park for anyone and I want to make sure that I do not sit in judgment of anyone. It makes me look at the homeless differently and others who are struggling. I am reaching out to a therapist to start sessions with her. Everyday is a struggle and I know it will not pass easily, but I am keeping my focus.
Interesting point here – watching the news tonight they are now talking about a new addiction "texting" that provides the same dopamine that fuels many other addictions. I thought to myself, well at least if I text I won’t lose my house, car etc. Food for thought!
Colleenp51
