It is Day 2 of hitting bottom! I am here because I need help in order to live a gamble free life. It is hard because I have used up all of my resources and have no money to even buy the needed essentials. Last week I had a $100,000/year job and today I have nothing. I am trying desparetely not to focus on what I cannnot change, but rather what I can try and change moving forward. It is imperative that I have a constant in my life and I am not sure what that looks like at this time. My goal is one day at a time and to surround myself with friends that have been through this and are going through this now.
I am smart and articulate. The saddest part of all of this is the damage I have done to myself and to others. I wish that weren’t true, but it is a sad reality of where I am right now. I hope and pray that God gives me the strength and guides me to the next phase of my life where I can hopefully find peace at last. This is the most difficult time of my life and I am not sure where I will end up.
I read many posts and felt inspired in many ways. I feel very helpless right now because I have no way out of the place that I am. I think I am at the very lowest point of my life. I hope and pray that God will help me find m way again. I am lost and hope to be found. Please keep writing – I need your support this first week without a job.
Colleenp51– 8/11/2010 8:43:26 PM: post edited by colleenp51.
