Hi Maria,
I have been reading your posts. I have the same weirdness about money that you do. The less I have, the more I want to go gamble. You can kick this! You know what to do. I have been "quitting" for so long now I can’t remember when I started. I have also had dreams like that…gambling plays many tricks on our minds and screws with us relentllessly until we stop letting it control us.
I just came back to this site a few weeks ago after I banned from the 2nd casino I started going to after banning from the 1st one. I was doing great until I went out to a local bar that we can gamble at – can’t ban myself from there. I just have to stop going there on my own.
The last slip, mess up or whatever we call it happened on Friday, June 3rd. This time I almost lost my best friend of 38 years. Let me tell you…I have felt bad, low, mad at myself, told myself this is the last time over an over, but this was the wake up call I have needed for years. When you on on the verge of losing people you love, it is time to stop!
Talk to you soon,
LisaNot Gambling…one day at a time
